I don’t know about you all, but when I have alone time I tend to talk to myself. I was driving the other day and talking to myself about how I was doing so far that day. Talking to myself like this is a regular occurrence for me, however this particular car convo gave me an idea. I realized that talking to myself helps me be more aware of my actions and being. On that day in the car, I got the idea that self-awareness has the potential to be seen with 20/20 vision. I was thinking about this with the idea that I could have clearer self-awareness and presence for the 2020 year. People always talk about hindsight being 20/20, but why wait until moments have passed to be able to see clearly? Why not step in front of the situation with full awareness and clarity?
I’m not entirely sure why, but this realization was completely mind blowing to me. So many times I look back on a situation with so much clarity on the impact it had, whether it was positive or negative. Why do we have such a hard time seeing that clearly when something is actually happening? It could be a relationship, bad habit, reaction, you name it. Why can’t we see what’s happening right then and there? What is stopping us from having clarity in self-awareness?
After thinking through all of these thoughts while talking to myself, I decided my goal for 2020 was to have more self-awareness before it turns into hindsight. I want to see myself with 20/20 vision right in the moment. I want complete transparency with myself and with others. I want to see me in every moment as it happens. Maybe this way I can actually have a little more control over how my life goes. Looking back only does so much. At that point, situations have ended and damage has been done. All you can do then is reflect and move forward, hoping for a better outcome the next time. I am ready to break that cycle. I want to make better in-the-moment decisions. Will I be perfect? Probably not. However, I believe the idea of being able to have 20/20 self-awareness can make huge difference in the way approach our day-to-day lives. Maybe this will come easier than expected or perhaps it will take many more conversations with myself to really grasp this concept. I’m ready to improve the quality and clarity of my self-awareness. Are you?
-MG
